Joyful Kinako

For as long as I can remember, I’ve always enjoyed being by myself. I’m not really that fond of company for a long time, but I like it if it’s for a small period of time.

I remember, when I started school, I was a tad sad that I didn’t have any friends I could talk to in the break. But later on, it didn’t really face me. In school, when we had recess, I would most likely listen to a cd on a disk-man (that’s what they were called, wasn’t it? Damn, I’m old!) or read a book either in the corner of the classroom or in the library.  Later on I did get some friends, who I could hang out with doing recess. Mostly we would actually go to the library, so I could read or listen to music on my (new) iPod (Wohoo! Upgrade!). They would talk and I would make my input from time to time. They didn’t really seem to mind that, so that wasn’t so bad.

Then after 7^th grade I switched school. My friends weren’t happy about that, but I just wasn’t happy in the class. I was then again alone doing recess most of the time. Sometimes one of my classmates would interact with me, but that wasn’t often. I remember in 9^th grade there was a big party I wasn’t invited to, and that was mostly because I wasn’t really friends with any of my classmates. I did feel sad about it, but also a bit happy. I don’t like going to a big, wild party. I’ll just end up leaving as one of the first, because I just wouldn’t feel comfortable.  So I didn’t really have much of a social life, and that has been going on even after I finished school this June.

In the beginning of it all, I thought I was weird and didn’t belong. It was a few years ago I realized that I’m not the only one. I found that out thanks to Youtube (Damn, I’m on that site a bit too much). I also realized that I would be called an introvert, because I would feel drained when being social, but would charge up, when I was alone (the opposite of an extrovert.). And being an introvert is not bad. I know that it’s just a part of who I am, but sadly a part of it is also my social phobia, but I’m actually working on that. But no matter what it would still mean that I’m an introvert, who likes to sit in my room all by myself (and some kind of sound e.g. Music, TV, etc.) and just relax in my own way. I can be social sometimes, but not that often. And if I am social it would be in small groups, so I wouldn’t feel overwhelmed and awkward, because I wouldn’t know what to do.

But again, it’s not bad being an introvert, as it’s not bad being an extrovert. Just have to remember that!

So that was enough about me. Are you an extrovert or an introvert? (I’m curious!)

When I go my pay check last week, I had decided to treat myself for being good. I ended up going to town and somehow got to the shopping centre, where they have the high-end cosmetics. So because it was high-end and I don’t have a lot of money (most of my pay check went to savings, when I’m moving out of my parents’ house) I don’t buy a lot.

I started at MAC, where I looked at the lipsticks. There were so many, and they were displayed so nicely, so you could easily find that type of lipstick you wanted and then the colour. The saleswoman was friendly and helped me pick the colours I wanted. I picked two lipsticks, which were then tried on me, to see, if I liked them. In the end I ended up with two lipsticks and a lip liner from MAC.

Now that I've realised it, I can actually check the Russian Red lipstick of my Autumn Wish List. *happy dance*

Lastly I went to Bobbi Brown, which was a brand I had never tried. I tried their hydrating eye cream, corrector and creamy concealer kit. I was actually impressed with it and the saleswoman was nice and gave me tips and tricks with concealer and told me about the products a tried. In the end I only the hydrating eye cream, because of the price on the products and I’m not rich.

So these were the things I ended up buying from my little shopping trip. I love going to places like MAC, Bobbi Brown etc. which have the high-end products, because they now completely what they are talking about and gladly share a few tips and tricks with you about make up.

Today I decided to actually start a bit on the beauty posts! And with that, I wanted to share my Autumn Wish List. It might not be that interesting, but it could maybe give some inspirations for somebody. Who knows?

MAC Matte Lipstick – Kinda Sexy

I’ve always wanted a nude lipstick, so I thought it would be a good chance to put it on my little wish list. I choose MAC because of all the great things, you hear about them. But not did I only choose it on that reasons. I’ve searched a lot of reviews just to be sure that I would make the right purchase.  And I still always wanted a nude lipstick, especially in matte, because I’m not really fund of the shiny ones. (I have one, which just has a bit too much shimmer in, which I don’t like)

Urban Decay: Naked 24/7: Glide On Double-Ended Eye Pencil: Naked Basics

When I saw this one, I just knew I had to have it. I kinda love that it’s two colours in one, but I’m still not so sure about. I don’t own the two colours, and just thought it would be a great opportunity to put it on my wish list.

Benefit: Groovy Kind-a love!

I smart palette I would love to own! It would make it so easy when going traveling, so I won’t have to carry a lot more with me, when I have the essentials in one compact palette. I love the neutral colours and I know I wouldn’t need any other colours, when I will go traveling, either to another city or another country.

MAC Lipstick – Russian Red

Yes, another MAC lipstick, but this time in a deeper red colour. It is autumn, and you can get away with a more dark lipstick colour, which I would love to try. Russian Red should suit me, because I’m quite pale/fair (however you would call it) with a red undertone. So I just hope that this red would look good on me. I haven’t owned a red lipstick, so if I can get my hands on this, it might be my first one, and I just really hope it suits me.

NYX Eyebrow Cake Powder – Blonde

Now for the brows. The only makeup product I own for my brows is a brow pencil. It’s good, but I’m not quite sure it’s the right colour for me, and I’m not really fond of the pencil all the time. That’s why I decided to put on a set with powder and wax, which should be good, and this one is not even expensive, but it should still be good.

Morphe Makeup Palette

This one I would really love to try out. I don’t want to try a specific palette. I want to choose my own colours for this palette. The eye shadows should be good, and it’s really cheap, which sounds like a bargain. I would probably choose different shades for nude. Might choose other colours, but I’m not really sure, if I’m brave enough to try that out.

So this was my Autumn Wish List. Not many products, but makeup can be really expensive, especially with the high-end products. But I hope I can get the chance to get my fingers on these.

So do you have an Autumn Wish List (or any other kind of wish list)?